DESMOND

We were born, brought up, and raised in society, however, I would like to classify society into two types. Ancient religious societies, which were meant for gods and followed by gods, later adopted by us. and the other, that is today’s modern society. In This ancient society, people were more focused on the meaning of life, super consciousness, fate, destiny, universe, and soul. They all were working together, for each other to understand the deeper meaning of life. where each and every individual was conscious of his role in this universe. All people that were born had a purpose. So basically this society dealt with the broader picture, that is understanding of the universe and understanding of the inner self. However, the roots of modern society have been completely changed. The focus is more on material enjoyment and building of the nation, understanding of the inner self is completely out of the picture. We don’t know what we are born for and what our end will be. The system...

  Judgement day Ohh these bright clouds, too much haze, such a quiet place……. Where am I ??? welcome to the gates of judgement(a voice from sky) me:- Uhh…. To the gates of what ?? He:- Judgement. me:- who are you? Where are you ? Come forward !!! He:- ohh I am right in front of you. you cannot see me. I have been with you all this time ? me:- all this time? He:- yes. me:- when I thought no one was watching me, and I stole cookies from the shop. He:- ohh yes, I was there, at that time. me :- and when I swiped stickers of my book with that of my friend, because I was scared that he might get less marks cause his copy was incomplete?    he:- yes, I was there too. me:- and the time when I had a terrible road accident and I was lying on the floor for hours crying for help. he:- yes. I was with you at that time too… me :- The hell!!! I don’t understand, you have been by my side all the time, then why haven’t you helped me when I was alone, crying for help aft...

  ABABABABABA  /  BABABABABAB Things will change Wounds in to Scars. Scar’s in to Shields. Tears in to STRENGTH. Fear in to Courage. Envy in to Pursuit. Void in to Purpose. Pain in to Motive. Flaws in to Pride. Weakness into Powers. Loneliness in to Memories. Insecurities in to Dreams. Doubts in to Destiny. Chaos in to Peace. Sorrow in to Joy. Hate in to Love. Death in to Life.   Crater in to Lake. Storms in to winds. Tsunami in to Waves. Icebergs in to Waters. Waters in to Life. Magma in to Lava. Lava in to Land. Land in to the Living. Livings in to Earth. Earth in to Mass. Mass in to Gravity. Gravity in to Black hole. Black hole in to Big-Bang. Big-Bang in to the Universe. Universe in to the Multiverse. This change will infuse Ying with Yang. Shiv with Shakti. Kundalini with Nadi. Prana with Breath. Sattva with Tamas. Negative with positive. Demons with angels Angels with gods. All with one. one with all. ...

We are all born in this game, and birth is the beginning of game popularly known as the matrix. The rules and simple and this game is very interesting everyone has a limited amount of time, which is a span of roughly 100 years. this 100 years will be experienced by a certain medium which can be called as container, or the body. The player is not to be identified with his body. The player of this game is one who is controlling this body, that is the soul is the player. and this matrix is made for the player only. each player will get a body and a lifetime according to his abilities. For a player with previous 90 experience points will get a fully and nearly ideal body and maximum of the total allotted time. For a player with low previous experience, points will get weak or disabled body and limited time, so they don’t have to suffer much. The goal of each and every player is to increase their experience points, this point will be distributed based on the works o...

What’s in my mind? Is it a doubt? No its not a doubt. I think it is a way to force me, to make more efforts, so that I will be able to have belief in myself. Is it fear? No its not FEAR. I think it’s a strong energy that is directing me, either to avoid or to overcome things that can badly hurt my inner self, for ever. Is it anxiety? No, not anxiety, it’s just a projection of the mistakes of my past life, screaming at me to remember these mistakes. And not to repeat ever again. Is it depression? No, not at all. They are just signs that I have not being living my life by myself. Depression is a mouth that tells me to live my life by my standards not according to other people. Is it loneliness? I have a lot of friends. No this cannot be loneliness. It’s just another way to tell that something that is important, which is needed, is missing. Loneliness forces me to make efforts to have it. Is it panic? No its not panic its just an alarm, how horrible things might turn to if not take...

                           THAT ONE REASON 4 long years…….but besides the all crazy, happy memories all I could clearly remember that every time I was so much alien and was in constant fear. Well I am no rapist not a murderer either but all this time I felt like….with them. I always used to think, ”what was the fault in me????” yeah I thought I was guilty and I must be doing something wrong. I never blamed other…never instated I just took the responsibility of everything. Tried everything for 4 years to join my brotherhood but no matter what every time I felt like a outsider, an alien. But there was just one reason. I  tried so much to ignore this reason. It felt like it was just in my mind. Why???????? Maybe I was so much afraid of change. Maybe I still wanted to mingle with people ignoring the facts just to be happy. Maybe I didn’t wanted to lose faith in myself. maybe I didn't had that guts...