DESMOND

What’s in my mind? Is it a doubt? No its not a doubt. I think it is a way to force me, to make more efforts, so that I will be able to have belief in myself. Is it fear? No its not FEAR. I think it’s a strong energy that is directing me, either to avoid or to overcome things that can badly hurt my inner self, for ever. Is it anxiety? No, not anxiety, it’s just a projection of the mistakes of my past life, screaming at me to remember these mistakes. And not to repeat ever again. Is it depression? No, not at all. They are just signs that I have not being living my life by myself. Depression is a mouth that tells me to live my life by my standards not according to other people. Is it loneliness? I have a lot of friends. No this cannot be loneliness. It’s just another way to tell that something that is important, which is needed, is missing. Loneliness forces me to make efforts to have it. Is it panic? No its not panic its just an alarm, how horrible things might turn to if not take